I have always operated on a notion that I am not finished or I am not who I am suppose to be, yet. I have often said, “There is something bigger for me, something that God has planned for me. I can feel it”. Really I am saying that I don’t have peace with all I have done. The thing that is sticking with me today and maybe for you is, what does finished look like, what does peace feel like, and who gets to say when we are finished? The way I have always lived was with me seeking to be finished and have a sense of peace. If I am the one who is going to decide that I am finished or that I have done the thing I am suppose to do – am I not playing God? I don’t want to be God. Frankly, it sounds exhausting.
In seeking my own version of finished I am certain I have missed some things. I could have even missed what I am suppose to do. The thing I am looking for more than anything is a peace about my accomplishments. The peace that I seek is a very worldly thing. The peace that I seek is one filled with a full bank account, a newer car, a perfect credit score, a degree, the perfect job, or the perfect business plan. Is this what God tells us about peace? Will I feel peace if all those things happen to me? If you look in scripture for what peace is there are a few verses that jump out at you.(Emphasis mine) Philippians 4:8-9 says this, “And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me – everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you. More simply there is Philippians 4:6-7, “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand”.
Peace in scripture has nothing to do with my plans or accomplishments. It sounds like it has everything to do with reliance on God. Only God can give me the peace that I seek. This feeling of being finished. I don’t have to worry about having the right degree or having all the things that Fortune tells me is success. I just need to be the best version of me every day. I need to wake up every day and tell God what I need for the day. Then thank Him for for all the blessings I have in life. From that point forward I just have to look toward what is righteous. God will give me the peace that I have been seeking and also put in my life the things that He knows will bring that peace. I vow to slow down and just be the best version of me every day.
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